Hey I am updating from home, Yes I have the internet, but I hate using it from home cuz my mom is always wondering what I am doinng…I am downloading msn chat thing, so I can chat when I am online it will take like 20 minutes tho.
Um.. I have alot of things on my mind, like I cant put it in words, and i think if i could idont know if i would want to….Like I dont want to make the same mistakes i made last year, i just i dont…..Like i want to be different and thats something I can do, till………..Well it might not happen, like its hard to explain….Like i just want to be happy.
Ugh… Yesterday…..Well me, kristina, LJ, and thomas all went out, it was fun and we saw the boogyman. The movie was tripy like i thought it was scary but I dont know if LJ did. He just sat there as me and kristina were like freaking out, and thomas screamed…It was funny….he screamed so loud…What a loser j/k j/k…..Funny tho…. Then my mom took us out to perkos, that was fun, and embarissing. like LJ was trying to get my mom to tell stories about me and she wouldnt, But ya and then like thomas was flirting with blanca but he deny it…….LOL but ya, it was fun but note to everyone I am PLANNING anymore trips to stressful…..LOL well i got to go

ash

My opinion:
We as in everyone get so wrapped up in STUPID things, including me…I mean its ALWAYS…LIke he kissed me, or in somecases(not mine) she kissed me, or he hates me, or she hates me, she started it, or they say mean things, or i was just joking, or what ever the excuse may be, we all take it so seriously, like i mean Come one were only what 15/16?? Like i USE to think that having a boyfriend was EVERYTHING, but now i only find it something to complicated to keep, getting one is hard enough but keeping one?? Where to start??, It totally blows, then in somecases its rocks, like for some ppl it so works out, like i mean there BOTH happy, and you put in as mush as you want to get out…..But boys, or in somecases (not mine) girls are not everything…. Like i know REJECTION sucks ,  But beacause someone rained on your SUNNY  day, and like it begins to suck, it DOES NOT mean that the sun is shining, and i know that sounds SO SO SO dumb, but like i get it, NOW!!! Although life sometimes sucks, or you dont get a g/f or a b/f or strait “A’S” or  your moms a bitch, it all works out in the end…..I have been through so much, (NOT talking about thomas) and like i over came every obstacle that was in my way, like i know, that sometime you just want to give up, trust me I KNOW…but I didnt, and like @ the moment all is good, but ya, life is so much more than having what you want, its wanting what you got….